if you ever started a brand new day with your phone from full from last night, to 3/4 the time when you wake up, to 2/4 when you're in the car smsing. to 1/4 when you just changed your setting to no vibration just so in hope to save the pathetic 1/4 of whats left for the rest of the day. to, just when you reach school, your phone totally black off. its a bad day i tell you. thats what my day is like today. life is boring like a timetable, all so coolzz and square, all planned out for you. you just need to follow it. well, thats easy to say, very very easy. maybe i shall let the emo die off by itself and start to rearrange myself, my life, my feelings, my thoughts, my whatever thing and everything after mye. but, wouldnt it be too late by that time? i bet i'll be telling myself i'll do everything after eoy, and after next year and maybe the year after. by then, it'll be really too late. its been fast, very fast. half a year is almost gone, just like that. i see people around, gaining new things, some lost those important things along the way, but they've gained still. i've gained a bunch of new friends who are fun to be with too, but at the same time i've lost quite a number of things, i've lost the aim that push me forward, i've lost confidence in everything, sometimes i even think i've lost my mind too.to me, nothing much had really happen, nothing much really. but time have passed by without me knowing, sometimes its just too late to change, this is the route i've chosen and i think i only have one choice, and thats to go on with it, well at least for now.
i knew it myself that i'll look like a fool if i tried, but a part of me just wanna prove that i'm wrong to think that way. whatever the outcome, i'm wrong either way. sometimes i just wonder why am i so stupid. you walked past me and theres nothing i could do. sometimes i just wonder if i'm important to anyone at all. mind you, thats two different scenario with one moral of the story.
